lots of things...

lots of things has happened. since I can't online, I can't tell everything.

let's flashback for a while.

1. my facebook has been abled again, within the same day. haha
2. my laptop's adaptor has been blown up. It was full of smoke and it was melted. hahaha
3. my practice test was..... quite miserable. haha
my english test is the worst. how could I say "Alice would not fall into the hole if she has not followed the white rabbit." It supposed to be "didnt"!!! argghhh...
4. my laptop has been reinstalled and now, the 'm', ", left arrow, ctrl, alt, backspace and home button isn't functional anymore. I have to use the on screen keyboard to type.
what's more, there are no msn, yahoo! messenger, photoshop, flash player, mozilla and other standard facilities being installed. grrrr....


now, I have to concentrate. But he was disturbing me.
He who pay affection on me, and he whom I loved. They are a very different people. and disturb me in a very different ways too. =X

facebook has been disabled.

hwaa...

damn you hacker!!
because of the trojan horse u brought to my laptop, now my facebook account has been disabled!
hwaaa~~

how do I live now? T_T

asthma symptoms?

I got asthma symptom?

I donno. This friday when I just got home, I danced in front of my mirror.
Then I heard sound like dying cat inside my body.
"ngik..ngik..ngik.." everytime I move my body. I was scared, thought I finally suffered asthma. =X
So when I saw zaI online, I asked him about his asthma, to compare with my condition.
I asked Nacita too. For that day, they are my personal doctors. hehehe

Weird, I can still breathe easily. Just felt something remain in my chest, a little bit pushed my chest.
That was my first time experienced breath noise. But I already experienced pain in my left chest a long time ago.
"nyeri", in Indonesian. It's like something inside my chest pushed it outside, but inside also. =X
I consultate my left chest problem with zaI and he said it could be asthma or heart attack.

omg.

I'm scared.

zaI and Nacita told me to go check up for doctor.
But mom said it just because I was lack of exercising. wth?
Mom, don't u worry about ur daughter? o.O

For this moment, I think it just because I'm too tired with those tasks and lack of sleep.
Furthermore, we'll see. I hope I won't suffer anything. hehe


yesterday:
I went to the cinema, watched for "Kambing Jantan".
The movie was actually funny and good. But the plot was not really good.
Made me bored because of Dika and Kebo fights. ==a


And seeing Dika made me remembered abt him.
I want to meet him. T_T

And just now I imagining if I married him and then we have a happy family.
with a daughter and son.

question is: will it become true? when there's only her in his eyes? =X

the day the day

It is the day of SIMAK UI.

I got nervous at the night before and almost cry (again), but I hold it back and try to stand up on my own feet.
I can do it, yes, I believe I can.

Moreover, this is what I want. to be with him. to be a helpful person (in this context, as a doctor) if I given by a chance.

today, I made a lot of trouble in the exam room. hahaha
so silly and troublesome.

I can hardly done the test but weirdly, I feel that I can do it. No matter what the result will takes, I enjoyed the test.

God, if I really meant to be with him, then please make me pass this enrollment.
I already done my best (the best I could do within 1 weeks), let God do the rest..

btw, when I just got home I fell asleep due to tiredness..
n I dreamed I met Zai, who has been sick and helpless. I stayed beside him but can do nothing. =X
and just now, I watched Gossip Girl, and saw the Chuck-Blair scenes where was look like my dream.
fyi, I've never watched this episodes before.

weird.
And it made me miss him. again.
when I decide to forget him and all memories I've had with him. like I have done years ago.

God, please assist me~ >_<