irreplaceable... =)

yesterday's thought :

11 in the morning.
my mom left me with my lil sis, Alya, sleeping on her room.
I got to take care of her.

Suddenly, after about 15 minutes my mom left, Alya wakes up.
She cried, looked for my mom.
Her tears dropped, it's like she'll never meet her beloved mother forever..
Cried loud and desperate.

I hugged her, rubbed his back gently,
try to calm her.
I try to make her attention changed, from 'my-mom's-gone' to 'look-whatever-made-you-happy-there'
but it didn't work. [of course, maybe I'm not a good baby caretaker >.<]

the maid who worked in my house also try to calm her, but it didn't work also.

All she wanted is her mom (mine also)

I realized,
how mother's place is irreplaceable .
For a child, especially toddler n babies, mother is everything.
I felt a bit sad, since I can't do anything to her..

I can't take my mother's place..

But also feel nice,
imagined if I have children later (if I married years later),
and they need me so much, that my place in their heart is irreplaceable.
How nice is it?

I almost dropped my tears just because thought about these.

So I called my mom, said that there's someone needed her so that keep crying..
And my mom came home, with a speed of light,
and hug my sis.


How nice is it?? =)


I want to have a baby too someday xD

ps: I love you too, mom.
And your place in my heart is also irreplaceable :)


oh, 1 more thing I thought :

I wanna be strong!
strong enough to protect my siblings, my parents, my friends, my kid n husband (it's future daydreaming, okay!)

maybe not now,
I know I still a weak person,
can't protect everybody,
but someday,
I wanna be strong .
Wait for me, you guys! =)