time capsule

i'm stil suffering my illnessess: cough, fever, influenza.
but I won't cry over it. Let's move on.


Today, I dig up the bookshelf at the middle of my room.
And I found my old notebook!!!

natsukashiina...
here's the content, it's about what I used to believed in:

RULES FOR MYSELF
Chapter 1: Study @ school
1. I can't get good marks by copying others' answers.
2. Never copycatting others' work
3. Good mark isn't a must but I have to work hard to get it.
And if I failed, there's must be a regret that made me better.
4. I may not like the teacher but I can't hate the study.
5. No matter how stupid I am in a study, I musn't hate it.
I have to study again n again until fully understand.
6. Must increase my knowledge. Open up my mind nd point of view.


Chapter 2: Religion
1. Like everyone else, I may think that what I believed in is the best in world.
But it doesn't mean I can push somebody to believe in wat I believed. *remember Al-Quraisy!*
2. For me, Islam is already the best.
But I can n have to study abt other relìgion.
3. I must not do what God has forbade us. Especially just because of LIFESTYLE.
4. However, I can't n musn't be an atheis or went 'murtad'


Chapter 3: Sociality
1. I must not chose friends, especially just bcoz of personality, physically, n money. (unless he/she really pissed me off n unuseful human, which is mean nobody.)
2. If I hate somebody, don't curse. Just re-evaluate myself: do I really better than her/him?
If yes, well be proud of yourself.
If no, well then why u hate her/him?
3. I'm a shy person. I don't have to smile n say hi to everyone. But at least show it by attitude that I respect them.
Don't be a NATO person. Ppl like that is nothing!
4. Never really listen to what other's said till I noe the truth.
N I shouldn't follow trend that I haven't know the importance of it yet.
JUST BE YOURSELF.


Chapter 4: Past, Present, Future
PAST
1. No matter how painful, how embarassed, how sad or how happy I am in the past, I will never forget that.
2. We lived by learning our mistakes in the past.
3. No matter what kind of past we have, someday it'll make us miss the old days. :)
PRESENT
1. Do whatever that can be done today.
2. Try to do this:
"ibadahlah seperti kamu akan mati esok hari dan bekerjalah seperti kamu hidup selamanya"
FUTURE
1. I can be what I want to be, as long I have 'will', 'talent', 'hardwork', 'knowledge'.
2. I must have my own vision of life.
And it has to match my personality.

So far my ambition is:
a. film director
b. script writer
c. novelist
d. psychologist
e. veterinary
f. volunteer
g. 'ahli filsafat'??!
h. anime maker
i. song writer
j. game maker
k. web designer
l. computer programmer
m. literature expert (great poetry maybe?)

my hidden obsession:
a. Being a psycho! woohoo!!
b. Being a free hippies.

3. If I have succeed already, I won't forget my parents and family. Friends also. :)


Chapter 5: Love
1. I am a loyal person but once I get hurt I'll hurt even harder.
The fact is I ALWAYS THINK MY LOVER'S HAPPINESS INSTEAD OF MINE. =X
2. Once I loved somebody I won't and I can't like other people other than him.
3. I shouldn't love a boy by his look.



Well, that's it.
I really forget about this book and when I read it, I laugh yet questioning the rules.
Did I really have done them all?


I guess the answer is... NO, not yet.
The 'present' part, I still can't do it until this day.
And I can't believe all my ambitions were, especially the f, g, and m. hahaha
They're so not me!
Or Tita in d past know herself better than Tita in present?
Or I've changed?


that's why I kinda hate this phase: from a child to a grown up.
I'll comment about my 'previous' ambitions later.



Anyway, this is one of my reason for blogging.
Each time I wrote, it's like I am sending a piece of postcard to the future.
The postcards kinda express how was my condition, what happened in the past, and it's full of memories.

so maybe later on, I could read my 'pieces of postcards' n have a nostalgic time, take a lesson from my past and surely move forward. :)


that is why I named this blog as pieces of ehagaki. =D
*ehagaki: postcard with picture on it.