Love Hurts.

"Aku ingin mencintaimu dengan sederhana.
Dengan kata yang tak sempat diucapkan
kayu kepada api yang menjadikannya abu.
Aku ingin mencintaimu dengan sederhana
Dengan isyarat yang tak sempat disampaikan
awan kepada hujan yang menjadikannya tiada."

(Sapardi Djoko Damono - Aku Ingin)

"Maybe he believes me, maybe not.
Maybe I can marry him, maybe not.
Maybe the wind on the praire,
the wind on the sea, maybe,
somebody, somewhere, maybe can tell.
I will lay my head on his shoulder
And when he asks me I will say yes,
maybe."

(Carl Sandburg - Maybe)

"How can I smile, when my heart bleeds hard?
How can I happy for you, when your happiness is not me?
How can I still love you, when you keep hurting me?
How can I miss you, when you never really beside me
How can I hate you, when my heart told the opposite
How can I keep waiting for you, when you never know I really do that
How can I tell you I love you, when you're in love with her?
How can I tell you I want you, when you never wants me?
How can I give you everything, when you give me nothing in return?

All I want is to love you, and to be loved by you.
But you have her, and I have you not.
You have me, you don't want me.

Tears were dried up. Heart has broken.
It's a unrequited blind love.
For you. Just from me.
Forever I'll be. Loving You."

(Talitha - when I love you)

I want to cry.
He seems love her so bad, and I am nothing for him.
A bestfriend that less worthy than his friends, way less worthy than her.
When love hurts you so badly, why do you keep falling for him for many times?
I just realized that, since we're primary, I can't take my eyess off from him.
When he moved out suddenly, it hurted me bad that the part of my memories that contained my memories with him were erased.
Erased in his part only.
Until now, I don't even remember where were him when I did something in the past. Eventhough, in fact, he was in the same place with me.

T_T


*sick of loving him*