depression

in depression rite now.

first thing first, I sneezed a lot along the day. I'm afraid I'll catch influenza. H1N1?? Omo. I hope not.
second, Livejournal really got my nerves. What's up with the mirrored typed words and very slow reaction when I posted something??
and also, my new facebook friend--tasya--suggested me to post my onkey fanfic on OnKey community. But until now, I haven't get any comments yet from readers except....one protest comment. =__="
okay, no colourful post. I got it. Under cut? I didn't get it. lol
I'm newbie, I didn't understand much thing about LJ stuff.

I'm sad, because I'm easily get down by such critize. I can't be like that.

third, I made Damar feel miserable. He gave me loveletter again, this time he delivered it right to my house! And....I didn't reply it. Not yet. I guess.
I didn't reply his text message also. I got some stuff that I didn't want to talk about with him, but surely he would ask if I kept replying his message. I'm sorry.

fourth, the chance to meet my first love, Salman, has now disappeared since I couldn't make it to Teh Ika's wedding. Wow, time sure flies fast, my childhood playmate is now getting married. Congratz! ^^

fifth, my grandpa has died. I was sad, but I couldn't cry. Am I a bad girl?